Friday, August 20, 2010

You deserved it.

You fucking deserved every bit of it.

You were the one that caused me to go through so much shit. It's time karma paid you back. You wonder why I suddenly started being like this. Why I don't want to do all this shit for you.

Because, it makes me feel dirty. It makes me feel worthless. It makes me feel like a nobody that craves attention and affection.

And I don't want to feel that way. So I decided to live the life I wanted to live. You say it's not about me? That I should do this one favor for you? It's basically the same thing, just reworded. And also, one? Don't fucking joke around. If that was considered a favor, than I have already done you so many favors. It's time you did me a favor. Don't even try to trick me, I'm not that dumb.

Yeah, I said all that. Because I didn't want to do it. I was even trying to be nice that day. I gave you what you wanted, and I stayed true to myself. But no. You just had to ask for more. You always want more, and more. It's never enough for you. Honestly, I don't even know why I put up with your bullshit for this long. I told you I didn't want to do this. I told you so many fucking times. But you still continued. And I put up with it. Oh, how stupid I was.

Can you not understand the fucking hint after I told you so many times that I didn't want to do this? Are you serious? I really thought you were smarter than this. Or maybe you're just too focused on satisfying your selfish needs that you don't notice. And you get mad at me, and ignore me. Wow, you're really funny. What are you? Five? Silence won't work on me, bitch. I've been wanting you to get out of my life for a long time now. I thought that maybe we could've just stayed classmates or friends. But I guess not. I guess you and your selfish needs are just too damn important. 

If the day I stood up for myself, also means the day of our last conversation. Then, I don't regret it one bit.
Kay thanks bye. Have fun with your life.

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